1 am thoughts

Tonight, I couldn't sleep. It's not as if I have a lot on my mind, but I'm just wide awake. As I have gotten a little older this problems grows more intense. I will fall asleep at 8 or 9 and then walk up at 12 or 1. It's very annoying.

Tonight, instead of just laying in bed, I got up and walked the dog. Then I got on the computer and looked through pictures while listening to music. After that was over, and still very awake, I looked through all my old blog posts. It's interesting that there is a clear line of when I stopped writing really personal things on my blog and turned it into a photo blog. I think that's when I started writing in a personal journal.

My journey going back in time through my blog was very strange. It's so weird how time goes by so quickly. My first post was about getting accepted into Chapman for my MBA. Now, I teach there. Most of the early years of the blog was all about Lily- now, we can't stop trying to give her away. I remember some of the posts, like the pregnant belly updates, but others I completely forgot about. I am so glad that I have this blog- if anything, historical purposes.

My birthday is right around the corner and I am turning 27. I will officially be in my late 20's. This is supposed to be a big year for me- completion of my Ph.D., maybe another baby, move to a real house. I also can't believe I have a 3 year old. This past year was a major transition year for our family. I was really good at my job but making a big jump in career paths was inevitable. It was a financial step back and a starting over point in seniority but it was so necessary for so many reasons. Brian finished school and started his career. It's so strange to see him out of school and back pack free. I think that him being out of school has been a huge relief for him, but it's difficult for me. We just want to play, but I need to do school work. All my classes are over, but the hard part is going to start and I am dreading it. I have so much to do... maybe that's why I can't sleep... a looming dissertation.

Update: Still can't go to bed, but my cousin's blog is the perfect solution. I can look at it forever and check out all of her pinterest stuff. Here's the link in case you want to take a look too http://overthebigmoon.blogspot.com/.